Hey everybody, happy thursday! Now today’s question comes from Twitter. You know Twitter! Hopefully you’re following me on there but I asked you for all of your eating disorder based questions and one of the questions that I selected was ”Hey Kati, what’s the reason that our eating disorder speak to our competitive nature?” Very good question and in parenthesis she asks (you know, when we see someone skinnier and want to compete.) I thought this was a really good question because eating disorders are competitive and why does that happen? Now, eating disorders can be competitive for a lot of different reasons because it really depends on why you have your eating disorder, what purpose it serves for you, and why it started in the first place because as we know eating disorders are coping skills for something larger meaning we’re using overeating, undereating, over-exercising any of our eating disorder behaviors binging, purging, you name it… as a way to numb out, express, or something all of the other things that we’re feeling or other things that have been going on and so that is honestly why it gets competitive because for many my clients their eating disorders are the only thing that they feel that they owned themselves like it’s all theirs, no one could take it from them it’s what makes them unique a lot of people feel that way and so because our eating disorders tells us those lies, that this the only thing that you’re good at this is the only thing that only yours this is the only need to control this is what makes you special and unique whatever it is when we encounter someone else with an eating disorder we automatically think ”Well I do it better than you” ”This is MY thing” ”What are you doing in my world?” ”This is the thing that I do, don’t you know that?” and immediately we’re like combative, obviously we’re not actually saying any of this it’s all going on up here but we automatic compare our body we automatically compare what we’re eating and truthfully that’s honestly why I think treatment centers when you eat in groups is really helpful and healing because we have to get out of that we’re forced to eat the same we’re forced to sitdown and do activities with each other and we’re almost forced out of that competitive nature ’cause it’s constantly challenging it therapeutically I’ve also heard from a lot of my clients and viewers that another reason it’s kind of competitive is because we use our eating disorder as a way to scream for help meaning, we’re feeling terrible bad things are happening, we don’t like where we’re at and we’re using the eating disorder as a way to to express all that is we’re feeling therefore, our eating disorder is our way to ”prove” that we’re having a hard time and ”prove” that we struggle if we encounter someone else who has an eating disorder we’re like, wait I’m sicker than you I deserveto get help, I’m the one who screaming to be heard and so that’s another reason why our eating disorder can really be competitive. And lastly, I just want to acknowledge how nasty eating disorders are and how no matter how sick we actually get our eating disorder will always say that we’re not sick enough, we’re not thin enough we’re not doing it enough we’re not ill enough we’re struggling enough or feel shitty enough there’s never enough that we can do to make our eating disorder happy I did a video with Nikki Phillippi last week and if you recall, she mentioned how when she was struggling with her eating disorder she knew that it would never be enough like the ideal body that she was hoping to achieve would never be there because it wasn’t a real tangible thing that she could accomplish the eating disorder keeps moving the finish line and therefore if we come into contact with someone else who’s struggling with an eating disorder or we suspect are struggling with an eating disorder our eating disorder is going to be like we’ll look at them they’re worse off, look at that, look how sick they are you, you’re not even that sick and it starts this negative cycle up again therefore, then we end up thinking Well I need to be worse and we’re competing with them even though like I said before whenever never actually having these conversations, it’s just going on in our head and it’s essentially our healthy voice with our eating disorder voice, kind of going at it. but know that this is a very normal part of having an eating disorder and a normal part of recovery and if you are out there, and you are struggling with and eating disorder, you find yourself competing with other people, checking in with other people noticing their body, how much they’re eating all the time please reach out for help there are tons professionals that are available tons of treatment centers available to you so you can get the help that you need and deserve and I didn’t have a free eating disorder workbook I’ll link it in the description is on my website you can download it for free you can get started because know that recovery is possible and you can and will get better Keep working with me! 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