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The Anorexic-Bulimic Kleptomaniac | My Strange Criminal Addiction

August 24, 2019


♪♪ Drouin:
DO I THINK WHAT I DO IS STRANGE? YEAH. VERY MUCH SO. IT’S NOT JUST STRANGE,
IT’S JUST… IT’S OUT THERE. ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ MY MISSION WOULD BE
TO WAKE UP IN THE MORNING TO GO TO A GROCERY STORE
WITH AN EMPTY BELLY. I GOT MONEY, BUT I’M NOT
SPENDING ANY OF IT. MY GOAL IS TO GET
THE FOOD IN A BAG AND OUT OF THE DOOR
WITHOUT PAYING FOR IT SO THAT I CAN BINGE IT
AND PURGE — AS FAST AS I CAN
AND SOON AS I CAN. EVERY NIGHT,
IT’S LIKE THANKSGIVING MEAL. I FINALLY GET DOWN TO SIT
AND IT’S LIKE — IT’S A HIGH. LIKE, THE FIRST COUPLE BITES
IS THE BEST. AFTER THAT,
I’M NOT EVEN TASTING IT. I’M IN THE ZONE. I HAVE ONE DESIRE —
TO FILL MY STOMACH UP. KATHERINE IS GETTING
THE SAME HIGH AS SOMEBODY WHO IS SHOOTING UP
OR SNORTING COCAINE IS. ALL OF THE FAT SHE’S EATING IS
RELEASING DOPAMINE IN THE BRAIN, JUST LIKE COCAINE
RELEASES DOPAMINE. ALL OF THE CARBOHYDRATES
AND SUGAR RELEASE SEROTONIN, WHICH ALSO GIVE A RUSH. I PHYSICALLY WON’T STOP EATING
UNTIL IT’S COMING UP. ♪♪ ♪♪ I GO FROM THIS BIG AND EVERYTHING COMES UP
IN A BIG BREATH. IT’S SUCH A RUSH TO GET
RID OF IT ALL SO QUICKLY. THE RUSH JUST TAKES OVER
AND YOU WANT IT AGAIN. Dow: MOST PEOPLE SEE BULIMIA OR
BINGE EATING AS EATING DISORDER. AND THEY DON’T SEE THAT
IT CAN ALSO BE CLASSIFIED AS AN ADDICTION. Narrator: KATHERINE’S STRUGGLE
WITH ANOREXIA STARTED IN HIGH SCHOOL. AFTER HER MOTHER WAS SEVERELY
INJURED IN A CAR ACCIDENT, SHE BECAME THE PRIMARY
CARETAKER AT HOME. AT THE SAME TIME, SHE BEGAN
OBSESSIVELY TRAINING FOR THE CROSS-COUNTRY
RUNNING TEAM. Dow:
MANY TIMES, THERE IS A ROOT IN SOMEBODY LIKE KATHERINE
WHO HAS ANOREXIA. AND THAT ROOT IS, “I CAN’T
CONTROL THAT IN MY LIFE,” I.E.,
“MY MOTHER’S CAR ACCIDENT. BUT I CAN CONTROL THIS. I CAN CONTROL MY FOOD.
I CAN CONTROL MY EATING.” AND THAT EXCESSIVE WORRY
ABOUT CONTROL AND PERFECTIONISM STARTS TO BECOME VERY
PATHOLOGICAL AND DANGEROUS. Narrator: IN COLLEGE,
KATHERINE’S ANOREXIA PROGRESSES TO BULIMIA. ♪♪ ♪♪ I REMEMBER EATING
AND I LOST CONTROL OVER IT. ♪♪ I JUST COULDN’T STOP
UNTIL THE BAG WAS GONE. ♪♪ NOW WHAT? WELL, ACCORDING
TO OTHER GIRLS IN MY DORM, “WELL, MAKE YOURSELF THROW UP.” ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ ♪♪ Narrator: KATHERINE TURNS TO
CRIME TO SUPPORT HER NEW HABIT. SHE PROWLS COLLEGE DORMS TO
STEAL FOOD FROM FELLOW STUDENTS. Dow: THE ACT OF STEALING
CAN ACTUALLY GET YOU HIGH. FOR KATHERINE, IT IS PRODUCING
THIS RUSH OF ADRENALINE, WHICH IN AND OF ITSELF,
HAS BECOME ADDICTIVE. IT WORKED FOR MANY YEARS.
I’D GET CAUGHT NOW AND THEN. THIS WAY, MA’AM. THIS WAY.
WATCH YOUR STEP. Narrator: GETTING CAUGHT
NOW AND THEN ADDS UP. IN 2003, A JUDGE SENTENCES
KATHERINE TO JAIL FOR A TERM OF TWO AND A HALF
TO FIVE YEARS. Drouin: JAIL’S TERRIFYING. THE WORST THING ABOUT JAIL IS YOU’RE TAKEN AWAY
FROM EVERYTHING. I DIDN’T WANT TO BE ALIVE. Narrator:
KATHERINE DROUIN HAS SPENT YEARS IN AN ADDICTIVE CYCLE
OF BINGEING AND PURGING. SHE STEALS FOOD EVERY DAY TO SUPPORT HER
ANOREXIC-BULIMIC ADDICTION. AFTER MULTIPLE ARRESTS, SHE’S SENTENCED
TO TWO AND A HALF TO FIVE YEARS IN JAIL. Drouin:
THE WORST THING ABOUT JAIL IS
YOU’RE LEFT WITH YOURSELF. FOR ME, IT’S MISERABLE
TO BE LEFT WITH MYSELF. IT’S MISERABLE. Narrator: THREE MONTHS INTO
HER JAIL SENTENCE, KATHERINE WASTES AWAY
TO 68 POUNDS. Drouin: AND AT THAT POINT, MY FATHER
WROTE TO THE NEWSPAPERS. Narrator:
NEW HAMPSHIRE’S CONCORD MONITOR PUBLISHES AN ARTICLE
ON KATHERINE. IT FEATURES SHOCKING PHOTOS. SOON AFTERWARDS,
KATHERINE IS RELEASED FROM JAIL AND PUT IN A HOSPITAL. THAT’S THE POINT WHERE I FEEL
LIKE I JUST SURRENDERED. I JUST GAVE IN. Dow: THE PROBLEM WITH
KATHERINE’S TREATMENT IS THAT WHILE THEY
MEDICALLY ADJUST HER WEIGHT, THEY DIDN’T ADDRESS
THE PSYCHOLOGICAL UNDERPINNINGS. SO WHEN SHE IS OUT
IN THE REAL WORLD AND LEFT TO FEND FOR HERSELF, SHE IS GOING TO GO RIGHT BACK
TO THAT CYCLE OF BINGEING AND PURGING AND STEALING. Drouin: AFTER I GOT OUT OF THE
HOSPITAL, WITHIN A WEEK OR TWO, I HAD GONE TO FOUR OR FIVE
DIFFERENT SUPERMARKETS. IT WAS NEVER ENOUGH. Narrator:
KATHERINE SPENDS THE NEXT DECADE TRAPPED IN A VICIOUS CYCLE OF BINGEING, PURGING, AND STEALING NEARLY EVERY DAY. SHE ATTEMPTS TO GET TREATMENT
MULTIPLE TIMES, BUT NEVER SUCCESSFULLY
COMPLETES IT. TODAY, KATHERINE IS BANNED
FROM NEARLY EVERY SUPERMARKET IN CENTRAL NEW HAMPSHIRE. THERE ARE A LOT OF VICTIMS
IN A CASE LIKE THIS. THERE ARE THE BUSINESSES
THAT LOSE MONEY. THERE’S THE CONSUMERS
THAT HAVE TO PAY MORE MONEY. THERE’S THE LAW ENFORCEMENT, THE HOSPITALS,
THE COURT SYSTEMS. IF YOU THINK ABOUT
THE NUMBER OF MAN-HOURS THAT HAVE BEEN PUT
INTO KATHERINE DROUIN, IT’S REALLY ASTRONOMICAL. Drouin:
DO I SEE MYSELF AS A CRIMINAL? DEFINE CRIMINAL. I MEAN, I’M A CRIMINAL
IN TERMS OF THE WORD ITSELF AND ITS DEFINITION. BUT AS A PERSON,
I’M NOT A CRIMINAL. I’M SICK.

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  1. Wish I could be anorexic two or three days a week. Unfortunately, should I very rarely say that I am not hungry, my friends think they should call 911!

  2. my bad I wasn't paying attention the thoughts that came to my mind when I received this message on YouTube I didn't even see my message until now the thoughts come to me

  3. Poor girl I can't understand people who want to be as thin as a skeleton not understanding their hair will fall out their skin will be sagging and get older also their eyes will shrink like Pease…From malnourishment.

  4. Im proud of this girl to be able to be brutally honest.i hope shes ok and knows…she just inspired my niece to tell me her own battle..which is similaril

  5. Bunch of victim blamers on here…this is a MENTAL ILLNESS…have some compassion…so the big corporations lose a tiny bit of money, boo hoo…

  6. I hope she can get some help it's a addiction and mental health issue and coming from someone who knows I struggle with Ana myself and It's a battle everyday to just do what normal people do everyday eat. So I hope she get's the helps she needs.

  7. Of course she doesn’t want to pay for groceries. If she wants to throw it up right after she binges it, it’s understandable she’d not want to waste her own money. Why not make the store pick up the bill and not her.

  8. Yeah, I'm sure putting her in jail really helped. Prison systems are big business, not rehabilitation. Clearly, this young girl had a serious problem.

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